Gratefulness.

It’s not 100% yet, so I’m just saying that up front because I don’t want to jinx it…

But on Sunday night, my MacBook Pro DIED 😦

The computer guy couldn’t figure out what was wrong with it, or at least he couldn’t replicate it. He came to the conclusion that it’s either just a freak thing or it needs a new motherboard. To the tune of $1350. :O Apparently Apple knows of this issue, and is replacing the motherboards in the 15″ models, but not the 17″. (That’s what I get for buying up).

Anywho… for the moment, it’s okay. It hasn’t crashed, and has only done the stupid thing once, but not even that badly.

Reason I’m writing this: I’m not usually attached to “stuff”… by which I mean, I enjoy things for their purpose, but they rarely have sentimental meaning. You know. Unless someone gave it to me or something, but I’m just talking every day stuff here.

I completely freaked out when I posted about it on the Mac nerd forums and they said it was a hardware failure. Like, FREAKED. I didn’t realize how attached to the thing I was. And while the replacement cost is part of it (I paid way too much for this thing), I realized it does have sentimental value to it for me. It’s been my only real source of quality entertainment for the past two years (Google anhedonia. Reader’s Digest version: it is literally the lack of being able to have fun). Video games have always been a guilty pleasure, so I played a lot of them, and they were (are) the only thing I really get any enjoyment out of. It’s also been my only real gateway to the outside world (Google agoraphobia while you’re at it…) and I’ve actually made quite a few friends just chatting on Twitter and on Facebook. Friends that actually are willing to meet me where I’m at, and friends that are just nerdy and fun to chat with. That’s been the absolute best medicine for me, especially because it’s in a forum where I am completely safe to back out whenever I want. (Not that I’m planning on it guys, it’s just knowing that’s a possibility that keeps me sane).

So, today, now that I have it back in one piece (sort of), I feel much better. I was honestly going through withdrawal… and it’s not like I even use the goddamned thing that much. It was just… I felt completely cut off. Yeah, I have John’s computer, and my iPhone and all that crap… but have you ever tried typing anything long on an iPhone? Or a Windows machine that uses IE?!?! OH DEAR GOD I’d rather type something out on the phone than IE. Fucking hate Windows.

ANYWAYS. The reason I’m writing this is that it was a not-so-subtle reminder to be grateful for things when they’re functional, regardless of whether you think they’re very important or not. Don’t do the whole “don’t know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone” thing. Try to be as conscious of this as you can without going nuts. Because you never know when your best friend in the whole world might just up and have a motherboard issue.

Err… I mean… it’s not my best friend.

Uhh…

too late.

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