Fifty Shades of Red

So it’s probably no secret that I hate living in town. I don’t know of too many Druids or nature-inclined people who would pick it. But I don’t know how to deal with the IRE that my neighbours inspire in me.

Last year, we spent a considerable amount of coin to fix up the back yard. Before I moved in to my now-husband’s house, there was nothing but a small patch of green and a whole lot of gravel under what was previously a deck. Despite my agoraphobia, screwed up back and general feeling of “I can’t get out of bed”, we journeyed to Lowes to get all kinds of good things to fix up the back yard. My husband even spent weeks installing a patio (which he did an uncannily good job of doing). I put in a rock garden at the end of the yard. We planted trees which heretofore did not exist anywhere on our property. It felt more like a Druid’s house. I hated living in town a whole lot less.

But now, every time I go outside, I’m greeted with INCESSANT YAPPING. They were up barking at 1 AM this morning. I got up at 10, and they were outside barking again. I have four animals, all of which I keep a very close eye on, and have trained them to the best of my ability to be well behaved. I know what that entails, and these people are not interested in having well behaved dogs. We’ve called By-Law. We’ve tried talking to them personally. I don’t know what to do. I am being chased out of my making-the-best-of-a-bad-situation oasis. Being cooped up inside all day is NOT what’s best for someone who suffers from every depression and anxiety symptom under the sun (or rather, not under the sun, because I never get to see it).

WHY!?!?!?

I have been trying really, really hard to better what my doctor’s seem to think is an irreversibly bad situation. And I feel like at every turn, I get beat down! PEOPLE ARE SO HORRIBLE!

I can barely wait until we can move out to the country, which right now, looks like a very distant sort of thing.

Trying to keep my faith in the Kindreds that I’ll be helped through this thing, but right now, all I can see is red. If anyone has room to ask a favour in their prayers today, I’d really appreciate a shout-out.

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