I’ve found my groove.
I’ve meant to post about this about a zillion times, but just haven’t. So anyways, without further ado: The Solution.
So some of you might know that I’ve recently taken up silversmithing. I made Solstice presents for everyone, even, and have made some things for myself that I’m pretty proud of as well. I’ve received many compliments about the stuff I’ve made, and it’s still sort of hard to accept that I might be pleased with something I’ve done for a change.
Long story short, I’ve had some medication changes that give me a lot of extra energy. And not in a good, “let’s get things done around here” way… in a nervous “I need to do something with my hands or I’m going to EXPLODE” kind of way. But I don’t feel so doped up all the time, so we’re going to consider the new drugs a win in a sort of way. Anywho, the one thing that calms my nerves, is making jewelry.
So I sit there and file things, and I ask Brighid for a little help in making this piece extra special for its intended recipient, and I ask Lugh for some help when I’m soldering a particularly difficult piece. I ask Ganesha to help me out once in awhile as well, when something is being particularly stubborn, and I invoke Shiva to help me melt down old jewelry or things I’ve made mistakes on, and I ask for his blessing when something new and satisfactory is made from the old.
So after all my struggle with the whole “meditation requirement” on the DP, I think this is finally my answer. Crafting meditation. Might sound, well, different, but it works. (And you can be absolutely sure it’s something I want to do more than once a week that doesn’t feel like work). It’s the only time when my head is clear, and I’m allowed to let those little “Voices from Beyond” in. You know. Those little voices that tell you that there’s something to all this living stuff, and there’s something beyond it as well. The Gods, your Higher Self, whatever you want to call it. It’s in those quiet moments that that particular divine energy tends to find me best. I feel grounded and in tune with the universe all at once.
And I also get some pretty nice shinies out of it. Who knew?!